Some people ask when did the abuse start? I didn't recognize it as abuse at the time. But the first thing my Zionist ex husband did to abuse me was starve me.
That probably makes little sense as a one word sentence so let me tell you the story. I had been dating him for a month. Things had gotten very serious very quickly. It was our first trip together and we were going to my brother's out of town wedding.
After attending a service (at the cult) it was time to head to the airport. We brought food with us. We were supposed to share it, but he quickly gobbled it down and left me with a pitiful two spoons of food. This was around lunchtime. I figured we would be at the airport soon and he would treat me to something at the airport. And if he didn't I could always just buy myself some food.
But that isn't what happened when we go to the airport. I was told the food was too expensive and a waste of money. And not just his money either, the food was a waste of my money. Despite refusing to let me get food, he insisted that I needed to have a drink because I was too anxious. So he spent over 10 dollars on a drink for me. Meanwhile making me worse because I was then drinking on an empty stomach.
Finally, he agreed we could get an ice cream. Which he "treated" me too, than gobbled up most of it himself again.
We boarded the plane and went on our flight of about 2 or so hours. A flight where of course food was too expensive too. I expected as soon as we got off the flight we would go get food. Maybe even in the airport.
But no, he just had to get to a museum before it closed. It was dinner time now and I had hardly eaten since breakfast. While we rode the subway to the museum and at the museum I got angry. He then made comments about my behavior and expressed concerns that maybe I was crazy.
Finally as the museum closed, he finally took me out to get food. I remember where we went: Roti- because by that time I was so hungry I couldn't forget. He then commented on how everything was fine now and I'm just a different person when I don't get food. Yes, hunger will change you. Weaponizing food is part of the Zionist culture.
I look back and I think how obvious this was. But keep in mind when you are raised in a cult you are used to strange forms of abuse and being made to think any of your needs are a flaw.
Rachelle Kaufman is the vegan author of 13 books and is working of the 14th and 15th because 13 just feels unlucky! Titles published this year include Biology Trivia and Now I Know My South American Numbers. Rachelle is also hoping to expand book distribution beyond Amazon this year into more ethical companies or selling directly via a website. Or maybe Patreon!
